Waiting…Again

 Is there ever a time you aren’t in the midst of waiting for something?  Probably not.  Life is full of uncertainties, things we hope for and long for, but we have to admit that we can’t count on them and don’t know for sure what the end will be. 

Yes, waiting is good for you… but it’s hard. 

Yesterday I found out that I’ve been put on the waiting list for grad school.  There are three spots offered in rhetorical studies, and the three offers have been extended.  These three lucky ducks have until April 15th to decide.  And so that means that I, the unlucky duck, must wait until then to learn if 1) they turn the offer down and 2) if I am offered the spot. 

I’ve been on waiting lists before, and God has proven that He sovereignly controls the places and spots and offers that follow.  He’s a kind God, a good God, a tender Father who knows how to give perfect gifts to his children.  He’s not surprised, even if I am. 

The last twenty-four hours have been filled with “what-ifs” and “maybes” and “if only I had…”  You get the idea.  But then I come back to what I know to be true: God knows, I don’t, and the more I rest in this beautiful fact the more at peace I’ll be.  Although it can feel so unsettling and uncertain, the truth is that God’s sovereignty is the most settling and certain thing in the world.  He’s rescued me and ransomed me and saved me from myself…. can He not also do everything else, including opening the door to grad school and convincing one of those ducks that Minnesota is just too cold for them? 

All the world’s a stage, 

And all the men and women merely players: 

They have their exits and their entrances; 

And one man in his time plays many parts.. 

Shakespeare was right, except he missed one thing — the world is a stage, yes, a stage on which God directs the characters and events and situations for our good and His glory. 

So for now, I guess, I’ll just waltz in place, waiting for the next line to come.